Whimsical Dreams

There have been many people and cultures throughout time that believe that we receive messages from God, and little glimpse’s into the future when we sleep, to guide us through our life. Waking up from certain dreams I cannot help but wish that these thoughts and theories are true and hopefully my dreams will come true one day. My dreams are very vivid and often in them I am spending time with my children at different stages in their lives. It might be their first birthday, first day of school, cheering for them from the sidelines, or teaching them how to drive a car. Most of the time however, I am in the hospital holding them for the very first time. In these dreams I never see myself, so if it is true that you receive tiny looks into your future I do not know how old I will be when my children are at different stages in their lives. So when I am in this dream state I will just have to somehow remind myself to look in a mirror…just in case!

A dream is a wish your heart makes When you're fast asleep In dreams you lose your heartaches Whatever you wish for, you keep Have faith in your dreams and someday Your rainbow will come smiling thru No matter how your heart is grieving If you keep on believing the dream that you wish will come true ~Cinderella

A Non-update...Update

We are still on a fertility treatment break... I cannot believe it has already been four months since our last medicated/IUI cycle and here we are still on a break, which is why I haven’t blogged lately. Regrettably, I still do not have anything new to report. Tom’s company closed their corporate office at the beginning of September, so until he can find employment we are at a fertility treatment standstill – as if we do not have enough of a standstill in our lives already. We have high hopes and I have confidence that my husband will find a position soon - even in this scary economy. *If anyone knows of a company needing a very analogical accountant in or around the Orlando area please let me know - fertility friendly companies a plus* We are praying, hoping and crossing our fingers that after the stressful holidays and along with the fresh new year we will be able to also have our first (and hopefully only) IVF cycle.

Teach us, O Lord, the disciplines of patience, for to wait is often harder than to work ~ Peter Marshall

Holy Cellulite Batman!

There are a couple things you should know about me... I do not own a full length mirror or a scale - oh and I LOVE food. I judge my weight by how my clothes fit - I will be honest I knew that some of my pants that used to be relaxed or loose fit have became snug, I know that I am out of shape since I do not exercise, and am no longer the tone 18 year old my husband fell in love with almost 9 years ago. When I was younger I was very thin (doctors would ask me to gain weight) so you can imagine that I have never been on a diet & have never been active or have stuck with an exercise plan. I have been talking about dieting for a good 6 months to a year, but after going to the doctor last month for allergies I found that my short 5'2" frame had packed on 10lbs in the past year (besides the 10lbs I had already put on the last five years working my first office job) I knew that something had to change with both my lifestyle and what I was putting into my body. Especially since we will have to have IVF in the beginning of the year and would like my body to be in the best shape it can during my pregnancy. Most people want to lose weight after the baby, I want to get in shape before. So the following week I ran every day after work on our treadmill. Then... I stopped. I guess I just do not know how to stick with a diet/exercise plan since I have never been on one & apparently I am alot of talk and not enough action. However yesterday, after seeing the horrible cellulite that has formed on my thighs while shorts shopping over the weekend with my hubby, I finally put in the 30 day shred (by Jillian Michaels - the trainer on the Biggest Loser) DVD that I purchased a week ago and had my first session. It was tough!! By the end of the 20 minutes I could barely move, my legs were jello, I was panting like a dog and was moving like the heaviest people on the first week of the Biggest Loser. 1 day down 29 to go, wish me luck...

The past does not define you, the present does ~ Jillian Michaels