Thinking "Fertile" while patiently waiting for our Miracle

Time to catch up on this cycle’s blogging.

Last Thursday I did my first injection of menopur. Tom was at his softball game so I video taped myself administering the shot. I thought it would be a great idea, so that Tom could witness the first shot and since I am a baby around needles it would be a terrific idea to have something to get my mind off of sticking a nice size needle into my stomach. However I can’t say that it went off without a hitch, I couldn’t get the meds back into the syringe, I some how managed to get a vacuum so when I would pull the syringe back the vacuum would send the meds back into the vial. I had to call the on call nurse who helped me fix the problem. She said that she had never had that problem before, but I knew that it was my luck since I was home alone and this was my first injection. Tom did my second dose menopur shot on Saturday night and my trigger shot Monday night. He did an awesome job and it didn’t hurt too badly either, I couldn’t believe how fast he was compared to when I gave it to myself.
Monday morning I had my follie scan and E2. I had four good size follies; 20, 16, 15 & 13 mm and some smaller ones that were under 10mm. My E2 (estrogen) came back at 814, and my lining was an 8. I was all set to have my trigger shot that night and an IUI on Wednesday. I am so excited to have 4 follies this cycle, Dr. T. said that 4 would be the most he would proceed with so I wanted those four and I did it exactly. The nurse said that because I have 4 follies we have a chance of multiples this cycle. If we have a chance at multiples we have an even better chance of at least one healthy beautiful baby.
Yesterday (10/8/08) was our IUI. Tom had to be in at 8:30 to give his sample and I had to be back at 10 for the IUI. Dr. T went over our file and said that everything looked great for this cycle, Tom had 48 million post wash this cycle (last cycle he had 39 million). Tom stayed with me sitting on a chair next to the stirrups during the IUI. I am so grateful to have him with me during the IUI's it makes me feel like at least he is there for the first stages of our soon to be child's life since we are not able to do it the old fashioned way. Dr. T even asked if Tom wanted to do the the IUI (after he inserted the catheter - all Tom would have to do was push the plunger on the syringe in) Tom declined - that is why we are paying Dr. T the big bucks! We are hoping that the extra 9 million sperm and 2 more eggs will be the extra boost we need to have our baby. Dr. T told me to “keep fertile thoughts” which I found ironic since this month I have been trying and succeeding on keeping positive thoughts. I had to stop by the pharmacy on the way out of the office to pick up my new prescription of progesterone. The pharmacist – always friendly asked if I was pregnant because of the prescription dose that I was getting. It was very strange to have someone ask me if I was pregnant, at first I was kind of upset and said “no” quickly but then as I was leaving I was excited thinking that possibly one day soon my bloat from all of the meds would actually be a baby bump and I would be able to say happily “yes”. This is going to be a long two weeks!
We can only appreciate the miracle of a sunrise if we have waited in the darkness. ~Unknown