A story too close to home...

Today while checking the local news online I came across this story...

Deputies: Mother Suffocated Newborn
Baby Found In Trash
POSTED: 10:10 am EST November 3, 2008

FOUNTAIN, Fla. -- A Florida Panhandle woman suffocated her newborn and threw his body in the trash, Bay County sheriff's investigators said.
Stephanie Collins, 26, concealed her pregnancy from family and friends, deputies said.
Collins gave birth late Saturday, killed the baby and then dumped him in the trash, deputies said. The body was found by her grandmother.
Deputies said Collins had a previous abortion and didn't want to have another. She has a 9-year-old son. Detectives said she will be charged with murder.
Under Florida's Safe Baby Act, Collins could have left the baby at a hospital, fire station or other state-designated place within three days without fear of prosecution.
Investigators said Collins knew about the law but decided to "stick with her original plan."

Stories like this have always and will hit hard with me. However dealing with infertility things like this throw me over the edge, it infuriates me to tears. I desperately try not to question God, and do believe that everything happens for a reason. I have even come to terms with my infertility not being the fault of Tom, Myself or God. However I cannot for the life of me understand how on earth a woman could do this, why was she blessed with a child yet there are so many couples that would be the best parents in the world who have infertility. I just cannot comprehend why this had to happen and why whoever needed to learn a lesson from this had to learn in this manner - why did a helpless baby have to suffer? So many childless couples search out babies to adopt and this baby didn't have to be any different - it could have been adopted by a wonderful loving family and could have had a terrific life. Unfortunately instead the few minutes the child had lived was spent suffering struggling to survive and at the hand of his own mother. This woman is the lowest life form imaginable, she should have never had the priveledge of having the name "Mommy". I know that it's not my place to question God's plans and I hate this woman for making me do so. The only comfort I have is knowing that this child will no longer suffer as he plays among the angels in heaven.

In the same light this makes me remember what a friend I made over on the TTC board on thenest.com said that I hold close to my heart whenever I feel this way "we must have some AMAZING babies coming in the future...because satan wouldn't be working so hard to keep them out of this world!!"