Busy Bee

I have been trying to keep busy this cycle off while waiting for the cyst to go away, during my time away from blogging...

Tom and I went away for a long weekend to Palm Coast for our 3rd year anniversary. It was fantastic and definitely nice to get away from everything at home and focus on each other without the stress of everyday life. I am not saying that we needed to reconnect but it was absolutely incredible to focus on our love for each other, rather then constantly thinking of our next step with infertility.

However our mind couldn't slip away that long from our journey with infertility. We attended an IVF seminar that our RE's office has each month. We learned quite a bit and overall we were both excepting of this as being a possible next step as well as having a bit of anxiety about it all. If we had IVF coverage with our insurance I know that it would be a much easier step for us to take, however the financial burden is very scary.

Besides his medical office our RE also has a charity organization that gives away 3 IVF cycles a year. We submitted our application yesterday (it was due today). It took me two weeks to get all of the necessary information together and it was definitely the hardest letter that I had ever and will possible ever write. I wanted it to be perfect and in a lot of ways I feel like I was trying to put all of the effort and emotion of the last two years into a letter (without writing a novel). I didn’t expect for it to take an emotional toll on me as it did, but let’s face it - this one letter/application can be life changing. I am still not sure that I conveyed our message and desire to have a child as much as I wanted to in the letter. We will be anxiously waiting until the fall to find out if we have been chosen.

Currently we are waiting for AF to arrive so that we can begin our next cycle, and hopefully not need the grant after all!

Submitting yourself to positive distraction is like a nap for your soul ~Unknown