One week down another to go…

I just wanted to pop in give a quick update. I am 9dpiui and have 5 days until I can take a HPT or the beta in a week. At this point I am still patiently waiting to test. I am still thinking fertile as Dr. T says and honestly I have my hopes up but I do not “feel” one way or the other – I still have no clue what the test will say in a week.

I have been doing fairly well in keeping up with the pact I made with myself in avoiding everything and anything that could cause stress. It has been difficult not getting worked up over morons that I tend to have to speak to on the phone daily if not multiple times a day because of my job. Deep breaths seem to do the trick!


I am on the prescription of progesterone, as apposed to the compound form last cycle I am now on the yellow prometrium capsules. I am definitely feeling more side effects but thankfully I am not having the reaction I did last cycle. It still isn’t the best feeling or thing in the world but I am dealing with it nicely this cycle.


Other then that I am so deeply addicted to a series of books called Twilight by Stephenie Meyer. I am not much of a reader, and normally it could take me months to finish a novel. Well this book has captivated me so much that I have read 2 ½ Books in two weeks. The second book I actually read in one day… and have now started pacing myself, since there are only 4 books left in the series. The movie comes out next month so I will be dragging my husband (hopefully not kicking and screaming) to see it with me. If you aren’t much of a reader but want to try it out the first copy is only 10 bucks in paperback and is definitely worth a try in my honest opinion. It has really helped take the edge off of this two week wait! Anything that can do that (since I am completely obsessed with over analyzing every symptom normally) deserves a cookie or a Dewey button. On a side note the baseball playoffs have helped my husband take his mind off of this cycle although I can’t say that it has helped him stay de-stressed! So all and all we have done pretty good in keeping our mind active this cycle and hopefully it will pay off in the end with a BFP!

We wander for distraction… We travel for fulfillment ~ Hillaire Bolloc

Thinking "Fertile" while patiently waiting for our Miracle

Time to catch up on this cycle’s blogging.

Last Thursday I did my first injection of menopur. Tom was at his softball game so I video taped myself administering the shot. I thought it would be a great idea, so that Tom could witness the first shot and since I am a baby around needles it would be a terrific idea to have something to get my mind off of sticking a nice size needle into my stomach. However I can’t say that it went off without a hitch, I couldn’t get the meds back into the syringe, I some how managed to get a vacuum so when I would pull the syringe back the vacuum would send the meds back into the vial. I had to call the on call nurse who helped me fix the problem. She said that she had never had that problem before, but I knew that it was my luck since I was home alone and this was my first injection. Tom did my second dose menopur shot on Saturday night and my trigger shot Monday night. He did an awesome job and it didn’t hurt too badly either, I couldn’t believe how fast he was compared to when I gave it to myself.
Monday morning I had my follie scan and E2. I had four good size follies; 20, 16, 15 & 13 mm and some smaller ones that were under 10mm. My E2 (estrogen) came back at 814, and my lining was an 8. I was all set to have my trigger shot that night and an IUI on Wednesday. I am so excited to have 4 follies this cycle, Dr. T. said that 4 would be the most he would proceed with so I wanted those four and I did it exactly. The nurse said that because I have 4 follies we have a chance of multiples this cycle. If we have a chance at multiples we have an even better chance of at least one healthy beautiful baby.
Yesterday (10/8/08) was our IUI. Tom had to be in at 8:30 to give his sample and I had to be back at 10 for the IUI. Dr. T went over our file and said that everything looked great for this cycle, Tom had 48 million post wash this cycle (last cycle he had 39 million). Tom stayed with me sitting on a chair next to the stirrups during the IUI. I am so grateful to have him with me during the IUI's it makes me feel like at least he is there for the first stages of our soon to be child's life since we are not able to do it the old fashioned way. Dr. T even asked if Tom wanted to do the the IUI (after he inserted the catheter - all Tom would have to do was push the plunger on the syringe in) Tom declined - that is why we are paying Dr. T the big bucks! We are hoping that the extra 9 million sperm and 2 more eggs will be the extra boost we need to have our baby. Dr. T told me to “keep fertile thoughts” which I found ironic since this month I have been trying and succeeding on keeping positive thoughts. I had to stop by the pharmacy on the way out of the office to pick up my new prescription of progesterone. The pharmacist – always friendly asked if I was pregnant because of the prescription dose that I was getting. It was very strange to have someone ask me if I was pregnant, at first I was kind of upset and said “no” quickly but then as I was leaving I was excited thinking that possibly one day soon my bloat from all of the meds would actually be a baby bump and I would be able to say happily “yes”. This is going to be a long two weeks!
We can only appreciate the miracle of a sunrise if we have waited in the darkness. ~Unknown

Something New

This cycle we are starting a new regimen, we are adding a couple injections to our cycle. The new drug is called Menopur it is the only FDA approved drug based solely on pregnancy rates! Some women take this instead of Clomid but we are in Dr.T’s words adding it in “baby steps”. So from day 3-7 I will be taking Clomid at night, and on day 6 & 8 I will take an injection of Menopur. I will not be taking Estrogen Suppositories like I did last month though, the injections are supposed to also help with my lining. I am pretty nervous about giving myself the first injection on Thursday; Tom has a softball game that night so I am on my own. I loathe needles, so it should be pretty interesting giving myself an injection – what us women do to have babies! On Monday I have my first follie scan which will be CD10, we are hoping to achieve our goal of 4 healthy follies and our ultimate goal of a positive beta!
Information on Menopur: www.ferringfertility.com/medications/menopur/

Willie Nelson said “Once you replace negative thoughts with positive ones you’ll start having positive results.” I am going to live by this theory this month & try to avoid anything negative at all costs. It will be interesting to try and stay positive and stress free. I think it will not only be great for my body and our baby making capabilities but also my soul. I believe in thinking positively and unfortunately it’s hard to stay optimistic while going through IF not just because of disappointments but also because of unknowing what the future holds. Last month I was trying so hard not to get my hopes up that I became a little bitter and very pessimistic; which does nothing for a person. So this month I am trying to live by my own rules and those of the great Willie Nelson and enjoy life, appreciate what I have, and think positively toward the future. So save your drama for your Mama and leave your crap at the door.

A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty ~ Winston Churchill