I’ve Got High Hopes

Today is CD2 (Cycle Day) of our 18th cycle trying to conceive. I had my appointment this morning with Dr T, for my baseline U/S (ultra sound). Dr T apologized for last cycle not working and asked how Tom and I were managing things emotionally… I told him we were okay and that while we had some hope we knew that it might not work the first try with clomid especially since we weren’t able to do the IUI. So Dr.T. proceeded with the ultrasound, my ovaries and uterus looked great and I was given the green light to start clomid again this month. What a relief! I was secretly worried about having cysts and having to sit out this cycle. I asked him about my follicle size last month (I had a 30,25&15 on CD12) he said that he would like the follies (follicles) to be 20-22 and mine were much bigger so we will come in on CD9 for the follie scan this month and probably trigger (ovulation induction with an Ovidrel shot) that day as well so we will not miss our window for the perfect eggs to do the IUI with. Since my uterine lining was an 8.1 last month (the lining where the embryo implants) he will not do the IUI unless it’s an 8 and the thicker the better, so he also prescribed me Estrace (estrogen suppositories). However that means they had to drop me from the clomid study, which thankfully it isn’t that big of a deal since clomid is one of my cheapest meds at 15 dollars. So next Friday is my follie scan, and depending on those results we will do the trigger shot and IUI soon after.
After seeing the doctor, I was led into the “education” room with the nurse getting my calendar and instructions for this cycle. A woman in the hall shouted “It’s Twins” they were the lesbian couple that I noticed in the waiting room earlier. I might have let my outside match my insides when I heard the big announcement so it is possible that the nurse noticed, so maybe that is why she looked at me and said “Don’t worry everything looks good, last month was just practice & that will be you very soon! I just know that this is going to work for you!” Although, there is no way of her knowing that for sure it was a great feeling to have an Rn that see patients everyday & who has my chart in front of her telling ME I will be able to have that same excitement with my husband, and soon. It was a great way to end my appointment and I left feeling renewed and hopeful for this cycle!

Links to know more about the meds I will be taking this month:
Clomid - http://www.webmd.com/infertility-and-reproduction/clomiphene-citrate-for-infertility
Ovidrel - http://www.fertilitylifelines.com/serono/products/ovidrel/index.jsp
Estrace – http://www.webmd.com/drugs/mono-6300-ESTRADIOL+TABLET+-+VAGINAL.aspx?drugid=78021&drugname=Estradiol+Vagl
Progesterone - http://www.drugdigest.org/DD/DVH/Uses/1,3915,7353%7CProgesterone%2BVaginal%2BSuppositories%7C5308,00.html

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